I'm literally bored out of my mind, and the prospect of surviving another 2 months of the bland torture gives me nightmares.
Anyways, all stories have to have a proper beginning, so here's mine. Hello everyone, I'm 19 years old, going on twenty. That should speak loads to people who've already been here. To those who are too young to know or too old to remember (lucky you), this is probably the MOST over-rated time of your lives. I remember, as I kid, wishing I could grow up already, and stop being told what to do. Finally get to drive a car. Finally get to go to a bar. Finally get kissed by a girl and then some more. If only I had known me then :P
I've been living at this age for almost a year now (well, like D-uh) and I've got to say, it isn't all that its cracked up to be. True, you get to drive your very own car, and true, you get to make all the big decisions, but as we should have realized, just like with anything else in life, this too is a "grass greener on the other-side" kind of thing. Since we're on the topic of Grass, let me take time of to state for the record, to all of you out there, who do weed and pot and what and what-not: YOU DISGUST ME. Its true, you above serial killers and drunk drivers disgust me the most. I don't know why. You just do. Moving on, as I was saying, its not all that its cracked up to be mate.The "Glitz and Glamor" ? Puh-Leaze... Like you didn't already know. It SUCKS.
Everything is so superficial and pretentious. No one really cares and sadly enough, neither do I. Its all just so unreal. The things you see and hear and the things you turn a blind eye to and ignore. Your best friend could be snorting up some crap or the other or being felt up by some sleazy douche-bag and you just turn around and walk away. Cause if you don't you just end up being stared at or ignored. Or even worse, they'll act as if they give a damn and just get right back to it the moment you turn away. I don't have much else to add about this.
Now, the "Girlfriend/Boyfriend Experience". Boy ! This is a delicate dozy. You see, I know what its like suddenly thinking, "Man ! What the FUCK am I doing with him/her ?" How can this be right for me ? Is this what I really want ? Well, best of luck with that. 400 thousand YEARS, and I'm still pretty sure all of HUMANITY has NO IDEA what it really wants. So, its not like a couple of you are going to suddenly sit down one day and say, now look here, THIS is what I want. Cause, face it, what YOU want keeps changing. You can act or think or even assume otherwise, but we all know its true. In some cases, more evidently than others. We all want what we want, and most often thats what we can't have. The ONE thing you can't have is ALWAYS the one thing you've always wanted. Enough said.
Whew, all this negativity getting you down ? Well, I feel ya. So, for a change, lets talk about hopes and dreams and stuff thats still worth living for.
Now, all of you know that we'd be lucky to live for a full hundred years. Heck, if you're a grassy, you should be content with just 60. I on the other hand have it all figured out. If theres one thing that you can do to extend your measly life (Hundred years may seem long now but subtract that from your age, and then think about how old the universe is - for those of you who don't know, its over 14 billion years old and YEAH, I wiki-ed that... so ? :P That's 14,000,000,000 years.) Now compare that with yours. Your ENTIRE life is like a Milli-breath. ALL your memories, experiences, happiness, sorrow, friends, family, EVERYTHING. Just an instant. And yet, it is everything to you at the same time. Everything and yet nothing. Now tell me, during this one life that you have in your hands, how would you like to spend it ? Would you like to sit and worry about the past, dwelling on what has already been and gone, or better yet, freak out about the future, trying to figure out what will be and stuff like that ? OR would you rather live for the moment, relishing every second. Doing new things every day. Seeing all there is to see, living the life YOU have always wanted to live ?
The choice is your's and your's alone, as is your life. You have only one. Don't spend all your time regretting past actions and missed opportunities, least you miss some more that were right in front of you and then you regret some more. Life's too short for you to be worried about it. In fact, you just about have enough time to actually go about living it.
This my not really make much sense, but believe me when I say, Live as if you were never going to live again, cause you never know. It just may be true.
